Driva has been talking for the longest time with a very beautiful person (but oh so tall!). I think we have become best friends because I told her so much, but she says she don't make friends, she listen to people like as if it was a profession. I think that's silly, you can't make a living listening (but you can make a living talking, Driva's met a lot of persons that make a living talking about dragons and queens and magical objects).

She makes me feel a lot better about myself and she says it's not my fault that my uncle and Zyr died (but I don't really believe her when it comes to Zyr because a lot of people said she in fact did die to save me and some friends), and most importantly Kiki (that's her name for short and I call her the short name because I like her and I think she likes me too) said that the evil feeling I had that I was happy my uncle died maybe wasn't so bad after all and even when I was sorry that someone who really loved me passed away maybe I wasn't so wrong in feeling relief too because some love can be oppressing and some love might not really be love at all (but I find that last statement very strange).

All in all Driva feels like she has started a new life and I don't drink anymore and I am grew tired of Azuremyst so I'm exploring the Borean Tundra where I like it very much. I run with Jimmy and miss Zyr very much so I'll go looking for her some day and hope she likes my new hair. Kiki says it's not realistic to think that I'm cursed so it made Zyr and uncle die because they said they loved me, because then it really must have been they who were cursed and not me, because they said it. It's perfect logic. And papa hasn't died even if he never actually said he loved me but I'm sure he does (he knitted me a sweater).

I'm full of life and full of love and it's all thanks to Kiki and no one can stop me now. She says we should talk some more but I don't see the point in that since I'm so happy now and don't want to talk about sad things anymore.